The wind was making the tree limbs creak, scratching the window pane, giving the impression of some unseen presence seeking to gain entry. It was the second night that the storm had awoken me from my slumber. And it was on this night that I first heard it, the sound. At first I mistook it for the winds seductive sigh, but after a minute of laying there the origins of the sound struck me as coming from inside, and it was clearly not the result of the storm raging beyond the comfort of my own chambers. Upon this realisation I started from my bed with the intent of seeking out this misplaced sound that was hindering my rest.
Lighting the candle
So alone.
I can hear them coming for me,
As I cower beneath the covers.
Babies crying in the dark.
Scratching at my bedposts.
Im alone in this.
Relisation of lost memories.
Withered roses and acidic tears.
Babies crying in the dark.
So empty and so alone.
A recent revelation,
You never beat an addiction.
Still lingering in the shadows,
They emerge when it hurts.
Closer they creep,
As I cower beneath the covers.
So alone.
This is not the end.
This is not the end.
Withered roses and acidic tears.
Babies crying in the dark.
So empty and so alone.
Im so alone.
I've just realised over the past week that in the end, we all end up the same. No matter what life we may have lead, how much money we given, spent or saved, we all end up the same in the end.
No matter how successful you have been, or how many people you may have touched, we will all be equal in the end.
No matter what riches you have stored up untill the final hours, we all end up dead.
We shouldn't be worring about how much we can save dodging tax this year, or if I get that new promotion.
What we should be thinking is "If I walk out onto the street in the next 5 minutes, and get hit by a bus and die, where will I go?"
In the end we a
Please forgive me,
I'll always love you,
Exerbody makes mistakes,
Don't turn away,
I love you.
Lies,
Deceat,
You never knew,
How much I despised you,
You'll never know,
How sorry I am,
I never planned this to happen.
Please don't cry,
Please dont...
Fuck me up again,
You'll never know regret (you'll never know)
You never knew
How much...
This is for the best.
We'll move on (never forget)
No
Put that down...
Please....
Don't.....
You'll never hurt again,
You'll never know,
How I hate you,
You'll never know...
How...
I'll always love you.
In one of the many class discussions that arise in my none to formal english class, the topic of truth was raised.
This got my brain churning over time as I realised that there is no real one truth, truth is different for everybody. What is dead set truth for one, might not be truth at all for another.
For example, for a christian the definate truth is that God does exist and Jesus did come to earth to die for our sins, but for someone raised in a non christian house hold who doesnt share those beliefs, that isn't the truth at all. Their truth could be evolution or a many number if different things. But this is only an example of religious
My only love
So deep into your arms
Enfolded by my trust
Hold me untill we become one
Hold me untill we wander no more
We shall drift among the stars
Night is where we belong
No others
No worries
Hold me tighter
Untill our breath no longer comes rapid
Hold me always
Where all others can see
Our love is unmovable
Most precious of treasures
Hold me in death
Where our love is inescapable
Hold me so that God can see
We are but one soul
Hold onto me forever
Someone told me the other day that a perfect world would be where nobody lied and everybody spoke what they where really feeling. I pondered on this for quite a while and came to the relisation that they are wrong, it wouldnt be the "perfect world" infact it would be quite the opposite. Im not saying that lying is great, nor am I saying
that keeping your feelings locked up inside is ideal, but if we always told the truth, there would be major strife.
Everybody has one of those friends who, after completeing a piece of work shows you then says "i dont like it, it sucks", firstly I could write a whole seperate essay on this alone, but mostly,
Someone told me the other day that a perfect world would be where nobody lied and everybody spoke what they where really feeling. I pondered on this for quite a while and came to the relisation that they are wrong, it wouldnt be the "perfect world" infact it would be quite the opposite. Im not saying that lying is great, nor am I saying
that keeping your feelings locked up inside is ideal, but if we always told the truth, there would be major strife.
Everybody has one of those friends who, after completeing a piece of work shows you then says "i dont like it, it sucks", firstly I could write a whole seperate essay on this alone, but mostly,
My only love
So deep into your arms
Enfolded by my trust
Hold me untill we become one
Hold me untill we wander no more
We shall drift among the stars
Night is where we belong
No others
No worries
Hold me tighter
Untill our breath no longer comes rapid
Hold me always
Where all others can see
Our love is unmovable
Most precious of treasures
Hold me in death
Where our love is inescapable
Hold me so that God can see
We are but one soul
Hold onto me forever
In one of the many class discussions that arise in my none to formal english class, the topic of truth was raised.
This got my brain churning over time as I realised that there is no real one truth, truth is different for everybody. What is dead set truth for one, might not be truth at all for another.
For example, for a christian the definate truth is that God does exist and Jesus did come to earth to die for our sins, but for someone raised in a non christian house hold who doesnt share those beliefs, that isn't the truth at all. Their truth could be evolution or a many number if different things. But this is only an example of religious
Please forgive me,
I'll always love you,
Exerbody makes mistakes,
Don't turn away,
I love you.
Lies,
Deceat,
You never knew,
How much I despised you,
You'll never know,
How sorry I am,
I never planned this to happen.
Please don't cry,
Please dont...
Fuck me up again,
You'll never know regret (you'll never know)
You never knew
How much...
This is for the best.
We'll move on (never forget)
No
Put that down...
Please....
Don't.....
You'll never hurt again,
You'll never know,
How I hate you,
You'll never know...
How...
I'll always love you.
I've just realised over the past week that in the end, we all end up the same. No matter what life we may have lead, how much money we given, spent or saved, we all end up the same in the end.
No matter how successful you have been, or how many people you may have touched, we will all be equal in the end.
No matter what riches you have stored up untill the final hours, we all end up dead.
We shouldn't be worring about how much we can save dodging tax this year, or if I get that new promotion.
What we should be thinking is "If I walk out onto the street in the next 5 minutes, and get hit by a bus and die, where will I go?"
In the end we a
So alone.
I can hear them coming for me,
As I cower beneath the covers.
Babies crying in the dark.
Scratching at my bedposts.
Im alone in this.
Relisation of lost memories.
Withered roses and acidic tears.
Babies crying in the dark.
So empty and so alone.
A recent revelation,
You never beat an addiction.
Still lingering in the shadows,
They emerge when it hurts.
Closer they creep,
As I cower beneath the covers.
So alone.
This is not the end.
This is not the end.
Withered roses and acidic tears.
Babies crying in the dark.
So empty and so alone.
Im so alone.
The wind was making the tree limbs creak, scratching the window pane, giving the impression of some unseen presence seeking to gain entry. It was the second night that the storm had awoken me from my slumber. And it was on this night that I first heard it, the sound. At first I mistook it for the winds seductive sigh, but after a minute of laying there the origins of the sound struck me as coming from inside, and it was clearly not the result of the storm raging beyond the comfort of my own chambers. Upon this realisation I started from my bed with the intent of seeking out this misplaced sound that was hindering my rest.
Lighting the candle
Boredom hits like a snowflake on a hot tin roof and all I can think about are your moans against the darkness and my own name being whispered into my ear. It's all so tedious. That eternal in-and-out urge that grips us all, only to disappear, satiated, into the shadows again. I lie here in the heat – these humid conditions warping my mind – and endure you, endure your endless love. Can't you see? Can't you taste the passionless embrace every time you open another beer? I can.
We were once close, but lurk in the shadows –the light now burns like it never did. You pester and annoy, breaking the bonds that held us in the first place. Over the t
Current Residence: Melanies Heart, its true, I'm a hopeless romantic. Favourite genre of music: Industrial, Synthpop Favourite photographer: Bill Henson Favourite style of art: Anything different really, preferably macarbe or disturbing. Operating System: Windows XP (gah) MP3 player of choice: iRiver Shell of choice: um...tortoise? they have feet... Wallpaper of choice: Funny as White Ninja one. Skin of choice: Porcelain Favourite cartoon character: GIR (Invader Zim) Personal Quote: "Oooh with rabies, everything tastes better with rabies."
Favourite Visual Artist
Brom
Favourite Movies
Donnie Darko, The Nightmare Before Christmas I have so many...um...Le Petite Corsette is awsome!
Never thought I'd be back here, and almost 2 years later BOO!
Im writing again and it seems that this is the best place to put it up.
Or something so....
Yeh....
Catch yas all laters.
J
This is my VERY last journal entry on DA!
I will still post writing on here very often.
But I have found the journal non convenient so yeh.
Ive set up another one.
For all those (you know who you are..ie mum) interested
check out.....
drum roll please
www.silenceofpoetry.cjb.net